AGAINST ALL ODDS 2

Loraine was a woman who wasn't perfect too she had her own flaws but despite all these she tried to put in her best.she had her own share of wins and failures in the journey through life.
 Loraine was strong by God's grace.God strengthened her.we were working her up for chemotherapy and we noticed she was anaemic with a pcv of 15% instead of at least 30.I called her, I told her to get ready for admission.she asked me if she would go home the next day.I told her she would stay for a couple of days she said okay.we transfused her with 4pints of blood of 4 days and she bounced back.I took her to the bathroom and bathed her,she felt so good,we then took later in the day we walked like never before since her illness just as we got close to the ward she fell,so hard.I felt like dying.people came around the nurses got a wheelchair and wheeled her in.the next she had difficulty in breathing we found out she had fluid collected in her lungs(not due to the fall though).we had to pass in a chest tube to drain the fluid.all this while the oedema was increasing she couldn't stand up. Despite all this she kept saying we are more than conquerors,by his stripes we are healed.Loraine thought she would go home after 4 days she spent a Lil bit over 2 weeks..then she snapped she was leaving us gradually she called my sister and I she accepted her fate in her own way.we thought she was speaking irrationally.she was pale again she couldn't recognize us.we prayed for will...Loraine passed on at 61 going on 62....she earned her wings..

Tribute to my mum

Mum I weep as I type this I always hope we will conquer my way but God had better plans.against all Odds you tried not to cry in my presence and I did same not until I hugged your dead body.I'm trying to be strong mum.I held your gown to sleep to feel you so close.I remember getting you a hooded jacket when you were coming so you won't be cold I never knew barely 8 weeks later you would lie butt naked in a fridge so cold and the physical body I knew alone.mummy I love you...I miss you so much....I miss you.....
God thanks for holding my hands,thanks lord for granting her peace.

Against all Odds is an excerpt from the final,days of my mom's life.she earned her wings yesterday 21st March 2014.
RIP CAROL O.DORE

AGAINST ALL ODDS

AGAINST ALL ODDS.

This is dedicated to those, who fought cancer,who are fighting cancer and who will fight cancer. It's a way to make them understand God never sleeps, He knew us from the beginning, He knows our end.

My refuge.

  we were battling with sarcoma an aggressive form of cancer at that,the type that grows so rapid.The location of this malignancy was intrabdominal,the pains,the distension I wept in my heart (if she saw my tear she will loose the will to live)any time I said sorry.she wanted surgery done,the doctors wanted to be sure what they were dealing with so as not to go in blindly(that's ethical and the right thing for doctors to do).Loraine insisted 'remove this mass, please take it out so I can have some peace then use what you have taken for your test".she insisted so much that the doctors did as she wanted,lo and behold even with the huge specimen the pathologist had a problem in figuring out the actual malignancy it took about a month before the result could be issued out
 Surgery was done a huge mass was excised, here comes the tricky part. Loraine needed to be fit,she needed to recuperate well and fast before chemotherapy can be considered.The masses have started regrowing faster than before, abdominal distension is back,the pains of cancer have returned barely 3 weeks after surgery.she's not yet fit for chemotherapy and the cancer is already overwhelming.
   In my heart I screamed God!!!! Help her, show your self put the devil to shame.I went to God in prayers I came across psalm 91:2 'i will say of the Lord,He is my refuge and my fortress :my God;in Him will I trust.'My faith was wavering I almost asked God why.science really makes one question God and want to play God,the doctors were not helping they knew the course of the disease to them, she should be on palliative care,the malignancy wasn't even responsive to chemotherapy but in some cases chemotherapy may reduce the growth.Loraine already knew this so did I but we couldn't just give up on life.when there is life there is hope, miracles still do happen.
 I looked at her wincing in pain,she couldn't cry out she had realized that the most she would get is sorry.I wished I could aid her in bearing some of the pain.she was cachexic now,so dried up a shadow of her old self,she couldn't lift her limbs she had oedema extending to her waist,she couldn't eat she had lost appetite everything seemed to be going wrong.I took a glance at her just as I was about to leave her bedside I smiled and said by his stripes we are made whole.on my way out all I could think of were the times when she was seemingly hale and hearty
.......to be continued 

God is aware of anything we go through, any situation we find ourselves in.He words doesn't go back to Him empty.I just want to minister to someone today that he is our refuge where we can find rest in times of trouble and He is our fortress from where we can fight and be winners.
There is someone today who has a lot on their plate I just want you to know God never sleeps,delay is not denial,He will definitely see you through and you would come out with a testimony of God's greatness.in Jesus Christ name,Amen.

Sequels to against all Odds would be out every Saturday.

Thanks for stopping by I love you but God loves you best.
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